Polly Pissy Pants won't leave and now Negative Nelly has come to visit!

So I started 2015 with one goal, just one! It was a simple one too! To be positive. To see the silver lining on every cloud, to stop and smell the roses, to look at the world through rose colored classes.

Well so far the skies have been overcast so no clouds, roses are wilted or not in bloom and someone dropped and then stepped on my rose colored glasses! Polly Pissy Pants and Negative Nelly have set up shop in my house and won't leave!

I know I have many things to be thankful for, and I really do try hard to remember those. I mean I have a healthy family, a roof over my head, clothes on my back. I just keep letting the little things get to me and to stress me out and make me angry.

Social media doesn't help either. Stories about abandoned children, sore winners from the Super Bowl, celebrities that are transitioning from a man to a woman (okay well that one doesn't make me angry, it just makes me shake my head!). They all just make you scratch your head and go "What is the world coming to?" It makes me mostly just want to bury my head in the sand and pretend like none of this is really going on around me!

Getting old doesn't help either. To many "adult" responsibilities! Bills to be paid, taxes that are due. First time EVER that we have to pay and it makes me angry! I mean we make TOO much to qualify for any discounts/savings but barely make enough to live comfortably. Stupid, stupid....

But again...I shouldn't complain right? I have a wonderful, caring husband who makes me laugh, a smart and beautiful daughter that melts my heart, wonderful friends who let me vent and tell me to suck it up and get over it when I am being a pill, family that loves me and makes sure I am okay.

So hopefully Polly & Nelly will move their butts here shortly and we will all live happily ever after!

Ha!

Meet my alter ego - Positive Polly

Let's be honest - life can just suck sometimes. This past year has been proof of that for us. I have always tried to be of the mind that "everything happens for a reason" even if we sometimes can't determine what those reasons may be.

My goal for 2015 is to try to stay positive. This may involve a lot of self help books, a lot of positive quotes, maybe a lot of alcohol, but I will do whatever it takes to remain positive!

I may not have any friends in the end as I will sicken you with all the positivity but I guess if that happens then it just means I have more time for those other friends. (see...already trying to see the positive!)

Wish me luck on my new journey! Just don't say "I told you so!" when I scream at the top of my lungs and tell everyone (and everything!) that they can go suck it!

Dear Cancer, You can go SUCK it!

Dear Cancer,
I am going to be quite frank with you. Usually I try to be kind, not think badly of others but I just can't be that person right now. I don't like you. Wait...I think that is too nice. I despise you with a passion. There I said it!

I am trying really hard to think positively but so far only negative thoughts have surfaced. What exactly is your purpose? I mean everything has to have a good and bad side right? So what is your good side because I only see the bad. I see so many lives of good people affected by your vengeful actions.

I wish for you to go away...far, far away from those that are close to me and that I love. I don't want to have to see them going through the turmoil/stress/heartache anymore!

I am sorry for being so honest. I know this probably hurts your feelings. I am sure you didn't set out to be so hurtful.

I hope in the near future you will not be a part of my life, or my friends lives.

Sincerely,

Stephanie