So next Saturday will mark the end of my first year in my 40's. Since it is one of those times that people seem to fear or not look forward to I figured I would reflect on what 40 has been like for me.
First off, yes...I did fear it a bit. Not necessarily because I don't like getting older, but just for the fact that my birthday number was 40! It was what the number entails and the thoughts and comments that come with it.
So what can I say about 40? 40 is the new 20? Hmm, the new 30? Not sure about that either, because 40 is 40. I don't feel 20 or 30 anymore (I mean I was in bed by 9:30 lasts night and it was a Friday!), but I don't feel 40 either!
Yes I do have new aches and pains I didn't have before. I wake up in the mornings and have to remember to stretch first otherwise it hurts to move, and my back still hurts from Thanksgiving when I helped Chad move furniture (Obviously 40 did not bring me common sense because no I haven't gotten it checked out...I am still as stubborn as ever!).
40 brought the fun boobie squeeze - i.e a mammogram. That wasn't too bad. I mean I have had to deal with female doc visits and child birth so it was a piece of cake compared to those! And...good news...boobies are all good!
Though I wouldn't mind my 20's body back, I am glad not to be a teenager or young adult. I watch Shelby deal with school and friend issues and all the drama and I am just glad to be done with that! I am glad to be married to a wonderful man and not have to worry about finding my soul mate or dealing with the dating world.
However as you get older, your friends & family get older. In some cases, they get sicker and unfortunately pass away. Though this can happen at any age, its more common as you get older. No one lives forever and as I get older it means my parents get older. I try not to think about what may happen but the thought does creep up more than I would like.
Getting older just reminds me how short life is. It makes me realize the kind of people I want or don't want in my life. What shit I am willing to put up with, and what I just need to flush away (ha, see what I did there, hee, hee!)
So honestly being 40 is pretty great! I have wonderful friends and family, a good job, a roof over my head, a loving husband and a beautiful, smart daughter. So bring on 41...I'm ready for ya!!