Random stuff bout Me, Chad, Shelby or anything else I feel like talking about

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Annual Pederslie Holiday Letter

So for the past several years I have always sent a letter with our Christmas cards. This year I just didn't feel like it. I wasn't even sure if I was going to send Christmas cards. Not only do I send letters but I have always had some type of homemade card too. Again, this year I just didn't feel like it, but had a change of heart a few days ago. Luckily I have made enough holiday cards over the past few years PLUS have participated in holiday card swaps that I was able to come up with enough cards to send out! But...no holiday letter.

Now I know many of you are going "What the....???? How will I survive without the Pederslie holiday letter? My holiday is not complete with out it. SAY IT AIN'T SO!"

So I figured I would write one, but post it here instead.

So this year has been....interesting. Lots of changes, some good, some not so good.

Early this year we flew to San Diego for Stacy (Chad's sisters) wedding. While we were there we took a few side trips. We went to Chip Foose's shop (for those not in the know, Chip Foose designs/builds hot rods). While we were there Chip actually showed up to pick up some items for an episode of Overhaulin'. Chad got his picture taken with him!
Before heading home we headed up to D-Land and California Adventure. We hadn't been there since CarsLand went in so we had to go! Of course Shelby wanted nothing to do with getting her pictures taken with any of the characters but I did! Below is a picture of me and my good friend Jessie.

While we were away, my brother got engaged! He reconnected with a girl he had gone to school with (via Facebook, which I would like to point out he had teased me about for AGES, and said he would never join!). He found a good women in Christine. Well let me rephrase that...he found someone that will put up with his constant teasing and will give it right back! She has a son and a daughter so we gained a few more cousins/grandkids in our family. Oh and a furry cousin/grandkid too! Our furry kid, Harley, likes this!

They got married in August down by Mt Rainier. What is up with these destination weddings though? A half hour drive is all I ask! Just a quick trip to attend the wedding people! Hee, hee!
On a sad front, one of our cats disappeared this summer and never came back. I just keep telling myself that some old lady in the area is lonely and has taken in a bunch of cats and that our cat is keeping her company! Shelby & I immediately wanted another cat. Chad said no! But little did he know....Shelby & I are the decision makers in this house. Okay, maybe he knows but he pretends like he still makes the decisions!

So for Shelby's 11th birthday this year we decided to get her a kitten. We took her to the Humane Society in Bellevue. Even after walking in and seeing all the cats I don't think she totally understood why we were there. If only I had gotten a picture of her face when she put it all together! She was so excited! 

Meet Pinto Max Pederslie!
He came with the name Pinto and we thought about changing it but decided not to. Shelby wanted to name him Max at first but then we decided Max would become his middle name. Though I think we call him everything but Pinto! Pinto Bean, Little Dude....

So as you can image we were a bit unsure of how he would fit in with our other furry kids. Luckily he is a little spitfire and has no fears at all! Right away he was like "Out of my way! I want to play with my new brother & sister!" Harley seems to enjoy him as she now has a playmate. Tiger on the other hand just tolerates him. Hopefully that will change!
If I am very, very quiet he will never know I am here!
I wuv you!
So as the year comes to a close I am getting ready for my last day at Honeywell. Due to some role changes, my job is being eliminated. It is quite bittersweet because I work with a great group of people at our facility. I have also made some very good friendships with coworkers at other sites. Luckily I have been there long enough that I will get a nice little package that will at least get us through the holidays and into the first part of the new year. Though I have been working for the past 18 yrs so I actually would like to find a new job sooner rather than later! Luckily I have a great support group with my family and friends so I have been able to get through this trying time with a small smile on my face!

So I think I am ready for the new year. We will be welcoming a new baby to the family next year. Not me of course! Stacy is having a baby boy early January. Oh how I love little babies that I can hug and snuggle and then give back to the parents when they get fussy!

I hope the new year will bring me a job, some fun times and no serious life altering situations! I think I have met my quota of those for at least another year!

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Thursday, September 19, 2013


Saw this on a friend's Facebook page and thought t would be fun!


1. What is your salad dressing of choice? Blue (or is that Bleu?) Cheese

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Red Lobster

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Cereal!

5.What do you like to put on your bagel? cream cheese or butter


1. How many televisions are in your house? 3

2. What color cell phone do you have? white w/a blue cover

4. Have any idea how may Megahertz your computer has? 1 megehertz not enough


1. Are you right-handed or left-handed? right though I can write with both (and my toes!)

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Does a baby count?

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted? Isn't that what my husband is for? To lift heavy things? And fix my car!

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? No


1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? No

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? I already changed it...when I got married! Best day of my life! :)

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Hmm, maybe for $1,000


1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own? 1, 289

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Hmm, within the last 8 years but not sure exactly when! I run into them at Starbuck's quite often. Does that count?

3. Last person you talked to? Chad

4. Last person you hugged? Shelby


1. Season? Summer (hence the reason for my 1,289 pairs of flip flops!)

2. Holiday? Halloween

3. Day of the week? Saturday

4. Month? June


1. Missing someone? Sure! My friend Nikki in AZ.

2. Mood? Unsettled

3. What are you listening to? Airplane Repo on TV

4. Watching? Um Duh....


1. First place you went this morning? Back to bed??

2. What's the last movie you saw? Burlesque

3. Do you smile often? I try to!


1. Do you always answer your phone? Heck no!

2. Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? Why am I up at 4 in the morning checking my texts?

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be? I like my eyes!

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? You can add flavor? I just get a Cherry Limeade!

5. Do you own a digital camera? I have one, Chad has one, we have a nice big one....Yet can never find a camera when needing to take a picture!

6. Have you ever had a pet fish? One Fish, Two Fish....

7. Favorite Christmas song(s): Sipping in Seattle's LatteLand

8. What's on your wish list for your birthday? Well you can check that out at www.amazon.com.... :)

9. Can you do push ups? I can eat Push-Ups.... :)

10. Can you do a chin up? I  keep my chin up, does that count?

11. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Excited....I think.....wait.....um......

12. Do you have any saved texts? Ugh, I hate having things in my in box! I delete, delete, delete!!

13. Ever been in a car wreck? Yes

14. Do you have an accent? Ya sure ya betcha?

15. What is the last song to make you cry? Hmm, don't know though I probably only cried because the song was used in some scene on a TV show or movie

16.Plans tonight? Well considering it's 9:30 on a Thursday and I have to work tomorrow...I have a date with my pillow!

17. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? Yes, and I enjoy it so much that I hit it again going 90 mph!

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday? Coffee, um another coffee and dinner!

19. Have you ever been given roses? Yes

20. Current worry? Work, my child, finances

21. Current hate right now? Stupidity, though this is a daily issue

22. Met someone who changed your life? My dear hubby of 13 yrs!

23. How will you bring in the New Year? Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

24. What song represents you? The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars

25. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Probably not, because I wouldn't be where I was today without having taken the path I did

26. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? Yes

27. Do you have any tattoos/piercings? Both ears pierced twice

28. Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now? I hope so! If not, Chad will have some es-plaining to do!

  29. Does anyone love you?He better!
30. Ever had someone sing to you? Oh god no! And if they did I don't think I would keep from laughing!

31. When did you last cry? Last Friday

32. Do you like to cuddle? Most of the time and especially if it's w/my little cuddle bug!

33. Have you held hands with anyone today? Shelby!

34. Are most of the friends in your life new or old? Are we talking about age?? Ha, ha! Most are new friends that are old??

35. Do you like pulpy orange juice? Yuck, pulp free for me!

36. What was the last band you saw live? Huey Lewis & The News? But going to go see Bon Jovi next month!

37. What was the best thing that happened to you today? My daughter said those three precious words "You were right" And my work here is done!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Phew! We made it!

Hard to believe but Chad & I celebrate 13 wonderful years of marriage today. 13 years ago today we professed our eternal love for each other in front of friends & family. Well honestly I don't know what we agreed to that fateful day as my memory is a bit fuzzy. I am pretty sure someone must have drugged me, and I am pretty sure Chad was about three sheets to the wind BEFORE the ceremony started...

Seriously though...I sure lucked out when he came into my life. And what a story that is!

So around Christmas of 1997 mutual friends of ours invited me to a Christmas Party. My friend's husband and Chad worked together. I met Chad, and even hung out with Chad but Chad does not remember me....Three sheets again!

Fast forward to June 1999. I had recently broken up with a guy and had moved out on my own. Our friends wanted to introduce us again (sober this time!). You know, so I could have a good guy friend that I could hang out with and who wouldn't "try to get into my pants". Later I mentioned this to Chad and he said "I'm a guy. If give the opportunity to get into your pants, I would have!"

So our friends set up a blind date. Well blind for Chad because, if you remember, we had met before but only ONE of us was sober! Chad tried to get the 4-1-1 on me beforehand and was only told "She is a nice girl that has her own place" Well to Chad nice girl=not so pretty girl and her own place=trailer park. So you can imagine his hesitation going into this date! It did not help that our friends drove by the trailer park on the way to my apartment!

Our first date was at Ivar's in Mukilteo. I don't think Chad & I said a word to each other at dinner, and in fact our waiter was hitting on him! Afterwards we all went back to my apartment. I think it was at that point, when Chad saw my little Corvette Hot Wheels car that he knew he had found THE ONE. For me it was when I found out he had a DVD player (which were fairly new at the time). You know, the important things....

We were engaged 4 months after we met and married 11 months after we got engaged. 13 years later we still tolerate each other and have a beautiful daughter as a result.

He makes me laugh, he makes me cry (from laughing so hard), he cares for me when I am down and is the best father to our daughter.

Happy Anniversary Chad! I love you!

Monday, September 9, 2013

The Coffee Club

The Coffee Club
  1. Honore de Balzac used to drink 50 cups of coffee a day. He woke at 1 a.m. each day and wrote for seven hours. At 8 a.m. he napped for 90 minutes, then wrote again from 9:30 to 4. He said: 'As soon as coffee is in your stomach, there is a general commotion. Ideas begin to move...similes arise, the paper is covered. Coffee is your ally and writing ceases to be a struggle.'
  2. Søren Kierkegaard had an interesting coffee ritual. He poured sugar into a coffee cup until it was piled up above the rim. Next came the incredibly strong, black coffee, which slowly dissolved the white pyramid. Then he gulped the whole thing down in one go.
  3. Voltaire was said to have drunk 30 - 40 cups of coffee (mixed with chocolate) every day.
  4. Gertrude Stein also loved coffee.  She wrote: ‘Coffee gives you time to think. It’s a lot more than just a drink; it’s something happening. Not as in hip, but like an event, a place to be, but not like a location, but like somewhere within yourself. It gives you time, but not actual hours or minutes, but a chance to be, like be yourself, and have a second cup.’
  5. Benjamin Franklin had high standards for his coffee. He said:  ’Among the numerous luxuries of the table…coffee may be considered as one of the most valuable. It excites cheerfulness without intoxication; and the pleasing flow of spirits which it occasions…is never followed by sadness, languor or debility.’
  6. Alexander Pope enjoyed coffee. He said: ‘Coffee, which makes the politician wise, and see through all things with his half-shut eyes.’
  7. Jean Jacques Rousseau said:  ’Ah, that is a perfume in which I delight; when they roast coffee near my house, I hasten to open the door to take in all the aroma.’
  8. Dave Barry wrote: ‘It is inhumane, in my opinion, to force people who have a genuine medical need for coffee to wait in line behind people who apparently view it as some kind of recreational activity.’
  9. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe was an enthusiastic coffee drinker.
  10. Jonathan Swift needed coffee at least once a week to write. He said: 'The best Maxim I know in this life is, to drink your Coffee when you can, and when you cannot, to be easy without it. While you continue to be splenetic, count upon it I will always preach. Thus much I sympathize with you that I am not cheerful enough to write, for I believe Coffee once a week is necessary to that.'

Saturday, September 7, 2013

It's True! Time DOES Fly!

So my darling daughter started 5th grade this last week. This will be her last year of elementary school. Next year will be 6th grade at the middle school.

Where has the time gone? I am pretty sure it was just last week when we were walking her across the street to get on the school bus for the first time.

Every day she just amazes me. Either it's because she is so smart and so pretty, or because she has such an attitude and I am amazed I made it through the day without strangling her!

She is an artist. She is an avid reader. She is an athlete (of sorts!) and plays soccer. She is a musician (plays piano and wants to be in band!). She is a comedian. She has a heart as big as Texas!

She is my little angel....at night...when she is sleeping...when the horns retract!!

But I never gave her permission to grow up! I mean she is almost as tall as me now and in 5 short years she (gasp!) could be driving!

So it is true, what people say. Time DOES fly. Cherish every moment because before you know it....they won't be little babies anymore!

Saturday, August 31, 2013

You All Can Just Go Suck It!

I am just tired.

I am exhausted of feeling like everyone is just walking all over me.

I am tired of always trying to help others out, but when I need help no one is available.

I am tired of being told that chores take precedence to meeting me for coffee, or that  you have to wait and see what may come up for a certain day before you commit to me.

And yes I know, people are busy. Um hello...so am I!

And yes I know, things could be worse. I realize that and remind myself of that every day.

I am not perfect. I don't claim to be. In fact I am far from it. I struggle every day with how I feel, should feel, or shouldn't feel. I try not to let the little things get to me.

But you know, there comes a time where you just want to go "You all can just go suck it!"

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Size 12 is not Fat!

So I was driving to Shelby's ortho appointment this afternoon and drove by a plus size store. No big deal right? People come in all shapes and sizes and having a variety of places to shop from is great. However...I did a bit of a double take when I saw the sign that said "Sizes from 12 + and up".

What the !?!?! Since when was a size 12 a plus size? And honestly, why must we refer to sizes as "plus" sizes? If we do that then I think small sizes should be referred to as "negative" sizes.

I guess what bugs me is that in our minds (or at least mine) plus=large and I don't feel large. Oh I know I could afford to lose some (okay maybe more than some!) weight but I don't feel large. Maybe I just luck out and my "plus" areas can easily be concealed under tummy tucking jeans, but I look in the mirror and I don't think I look all that bad. Oh sure....there is a little extra of me to love but that just makes me cuddly and approachable right?

What I love is that my daughter goes "Mommy you aren't fat. That is just left over from having me" Oh I have trained my daughter well! It's my badge of honor, my war wound for being a mommy and having had the privilege of providing life to such a beautiful little girl.

You know...size 12 is just a womanly size! It just means I am curvy and curvy is sexy right? Here is to all the sexy and beautiful size 12 + and beyond!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Depression is...depressing

There is feeling down, being sad, maybe just feeling tired and run down and just lack energy to...well care. Yes these are just normal emotions that all people deal with from time to time.

Then there is depression - where quite often you cannot pinpoint why you are sad, and sad really can't even begin to describe how you feel. Depression is where you don't want to get out of bed in the morning, where you just want to curl up in to the fetal position,  go far, far away and just not deal with anything.You feel worthless, that you are not good at anything, and that you really aren't important to anyone.

For people that have not dealt with severe depression they cannot fully understand. I guess they just expect you to cheer up, or buck up and move on. Some may think it's just a case of self pity. It's not that simple, believe me, I know.

You see, I suffer from depression. Several years ago I just felt very depressed, more so than normal. I mean I am after all a female and we stress, over analyze, take things personally, all of which can make life a bit depressing. But this was beyond that. No matter what my family tried, said or did helped. Chad, who can usually make me laugh, couldn't. The worst part is that you cannot put your finger on exactly why you feel the way you do. I remember Chad asking me "What has got you down?" I didn't know and that, well, just depressed me more. It's a vicious cycle.

Finally he had enough, and since medical options were cheaper than a divorce (plus I like to believe he loves me to much to leave me!), he told me to go to the doctor. What a difference that made! The doc totally understood, having had suffered it himself and dealing with family who had as well. He made me feel like I was perfectly normal, and it was okay that I was seeking his help.

My drug of choice is Zoloft. I like to call them my "happy pills". Some days, when I may be a bit more hostile then normal, Chad will go "Have you had your happy pills today?"

It's a silent disease. Consider what people you know may be dealing with, even if you have never had to deal with it. The last thing we really need to hear is "Well I don't get it. I have never been depressed." or "You have nothing to be depressed about". Believe me, I know that so imagine my frustration when I am depressed anyway!

I saw this on Facebook the other day and it just speaks volumes.

Thank you to those that have reached out to me, sent me mail to cheer me up, and prayed for me!

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

When Is It Okay to Throw a Tantrum?

You are probably thinking this is a trick question don't you? You are thinking "It's never okay to throw a tantrum!" I mean we always tell our kids not to, roll our eyes at other people's kids that are throwing tantrums and just think "Man they are bad parents!" but honestly....a good throw-yourself-on-the-floor-thrash-you-arms-and-legs-around-scream-at-the-top-of-your-lungs tantrum isn't always a bad thing!

I mean just because we are adults doesn't mean we have to hold it all in right? Sometimes situations just call for a good scream, especially when your emotions are all over the spectrum - sad, then angry, frustrated, mad at the world, back to sad.

So, what, you may be asking has me wanting to throw a ginormous tantrum? What doesn't!?!?! Let's see there are work things (job transitions, people that don't seem to pull their weight), there are kid things (My kid is 10....need I go into more detail?), people/life things (people doing stupid things, being self centered) oh and top it all off my little furry black cat has disappeared. It is going on 5 days now. This isn't the first cat that has disappeared so I am worried. I fight with the powers that be and go "Why! Why-y-y-y!!" followed by "Life isn't fair! I have already had two cats disappear!" Then the rational side of me pushes through and goes "Well it could be worse. Think of all those people that very sick" but then the irrational side bursts back to the front and just wants to scream, cry, yell and hey, let's just throw in the hitting of a few things.

So, maybe some people may frown upon this. Therefore I suggest only throwing this tantrum amongst people you trust, who you know won't hold it against you. Or if you prefer to just keep it to yourself kick your family out of the home and kick and scream away! I'm okay with it!

Sunday, July 7, 2013

The Day I Fell In Love with My Daughter Again

And no I didn't fall out of love with my daughter....necessarily. I was just reminded why I love her SO much!

So we just took a road trip to see Chad's grandparents in Montana. It is about a 10 hour road trip, confined in a car with three different, and very stubborn, strong willed personalities. You can imagine how this might end up. Surprisingly enough it went pretty well! Yes there were a few times I am pretty sure I told Chad to pull over and that we were leaving Shelby in the middle of Nowhere-ville (or to leave me in Nowhere-ville!) but for the most part, it was fun!

My daughter is HILARIOUS! She is full of silliness and boy did that come out! Maybe she was on the brink of going crazy but whatever the reason, she was busy bopping around and dancing in the backseat, and making jokes.

Our travels were filled with laughter. Though with the colds we caught, the laughter was followed by uncontrollable coughing.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Dear Stupid People and Losers - Part 2

This is to the idiot who decided it was okay to drink and then drive. You already had a court date set for a DUI. Shouldn't that have clued you in that it probably wasn't the best thing to drink and then to drive? To top it off you were driving the WRONG way on the freeway and hit and killed an innocent person!

What part of "Don't Drink and Drive" do you not understand?? I mean the warnings are EVERYWHERE! I am sure there was even a warning when you made that U-ee and went down the wrong way of the freeway.

Did you think you were invincible? I bet that person you hit and killed wishes they were invincible so that they were still alive and could continue living a long and wonderful life.

I hope they throw the book at you, because you deserve it.


A citizen that is sick and tired of stupid people

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Dear Stupid People & Losers....

I wish I could slap you upside the head and knock some smarts into you. I do not understand what makes you think you are so special  and can disobey laws that the rest of us have to follow.

I am a good person and I work hard for what I have. Maybe you should try doing that sometime too instead of messing with the system. Yeah I know that you can actually work a job so quit saying you have to be on disability, because dude, that disability only seems to pop up when the word "job" comes up!

Guess what...I work for the car I drive and the house I live in. So please don't ever think you can break into either of those items. Oh and if you come across my bank and/or credit card information please turn the other way. If you feel the urge to purchase items, well you better have your own money. Don't use mine.

Stop stealing from your company, or pocketing the money from that school or club fundraiser. Don't be on welfare or state disability if you are totally capable of holding a job (but are just too lazy to do so). Does that store dumpster have your house address on it? Then guess what, your personal garbage doesn't below there! Get a garbage service!

I am giving you fair warning here. You just annoy me more and more each day. One of these days I may just crack and it ain't gonna be pretty.

An honest and hard working person

Note to readers - Nothing serious has happened to me personally. I am just disgusted by stories I have heard from other people who have had stuff happen and am venting :)

Sunday, March 3, 2013

It's Official...I am Old

So last night I went to my sister-in-law's bachelorette party. It was fun, but I was glad to call it a night after the dinner and not partake in the bar hopping and other festivities.

When did I get old?? Was it when I had Shelby? Was it when I reached (gasp!) 30? Was it that first bone cracking experience as I tried to crawl out of bed one morning? Or maybe it was when the doctor said "Oh look! You have arthritis in this hand!"

Regardless of when it exactly happened...I am officially old.

But honestly I can't complain too much. Though nights out without my child are fun, I do enjoy the nights home, in my jammies watching movies and snuggling with my baby. Well and Chad too!

And I guess if I am getting older it means I get to watch my daughter grow into a beautiful, independent young woman. A daughter that helped mommy get ready for her night out on the town!

I can't complain!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Holy Crap! I'm a Mom!!

So I was talking to a friend the other about our kids. She asked me if I have ever looked at Shelby and just thought to myself "Holy Crap! I'm a Mom!" I had to chuckle because my first thought after Shelby was born was "Crap. I have one of those. What do I do now?" No tears of joy, no feelings of undying love. Nope, just a simple "Crap!"

I don't how often I start to recite the Serenity prayer (you know the one) when dealing with my child. Funny because that is the prayer used for Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and well, parenting can drive you to drink!!

Don't get me wrong. I love Shelby. I love her more than words can say. See, I am not totally heartless. That undying love did eventually show up. But there are days I just want to strangle her. Well strangle her and hug her at the same time. How can these little people cause so much emotion??

I have to say my favorite moments are those ones where I go in to check on her when she is sleeping. The devil horns have retracted for the night and she looks so angelic. I forget how she screamed at me earlier when I told her to clean her room, or how she rolled her eyes at me when I made a suggestion of some kind.

Sometimes I feel like going "God, seriously, why did you trust me to raise this little creature? Is this some type of joke??" But he must have a bigger plan for me, and he knows what he is doing! Well for Shelby's sake...I hope so!

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

The courage to change the things I can,

And wisdom to know the difference.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

New & Improved!

There is The Vampire Diaries (love, love, love!) and now The Carrie Diaries (never watched) so I figured why not update my blog with a new name and have it be The Stephanie Diaries?!?!

I can't promise it will be as bloody as TVD. Oh wait I can promise it won't be as bloody as TVD, as I am not a big fan of blood. However I cannot promise I won't post pic's/comments/or drool over TVD. My family knows to leave me the heck alone on Thursday nights at 8 pm as I watch my show!

I can promise this blog will be more grown up then TCD. Though I am an 80's child (and that is the era this show takes place), I would rather leave those fashions and times in my past! I was never a fan of Sex in the City, which TCD is a prequel too, so no real desire to watch that show.

So welcome to my new and improved blog!

Happy Reading!

Monday, February 11, 2013


It has been one of those days. Where you just want to bang you head against the wall and scream "Why God! Why!"

"Why do you make me deal with stupid people?"

"Why are you testing my patience!"

"Why can't I win the lottery??"

I know I have to quit thinking so negatively. What I should be saying when I get annoyed are things like "If this is as worse as it gets, I can deal with it"

But oh I dream of sitting on a nice warm beach, the sun shining down on me with no care in the world!

Any body wanna come with me!

Here's to hoping God grants me the patience to deal with whatever comes my way tomorrow.