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Sunday, December 13, 2015

Stephanie Pederslie's A Christmas Carol

So every week at work someone will post a riddle or question on a white board. This last week it was to name the 4 ghost from A Christmas Carol. Wait, 4 ghosts you say? Right now you are probably thinking I am an idiot as there are only 3 ghosts. Ah but think about it a little harder. Uh huh, yep just think a bit more. Have you got it yet? Yep, yep there it is! You've got it! The first ghost is (drum roll please!) Scrooge's partner Jacob Marley (that one took a bit longer didn't it?), then we have the Ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and Future. But I know you already knew those!

So you may be going, why write a blog post about the Christmas Carol ghosts? That seems kind of lame. In fact we all know the story so well and have seen it in a variety of formats and versions, why reincarnate it again?

Well this question got me to thinking - what if I was to be visited by the ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and Future? What would they show me and what might I learn from my adventure?

Well let's see, shall we!!??

The Ghost of Christmas Past 
She would show me a shy (but very cute!) little girl. She would probably just shake her head and if she could speak (the ghosts never did speak did they?) would say "Dude child! Just speak! What is the worst they can say?" She would push me into situations that may have been a bit uncomfortable but that would help me come out of my shell and grow a bit as a person.

She would also probably go "Really? Did you just have to be mean to that girl? Was that really necessary? How would you like it if they had treated you the same way?"

To the fun and adorable teenager she would continue to push me into those situations that freaked me out and would encourage me to be a bit more talkative to the boys.

The Ghost of Christmas Present
I think this ghost would tell or show me only a handful of things. Things that if I was really honest with myself, I would already know.

  1. Don't live in the past - been there, done that, bought the t-shirt
  2. Don't dwell on things you cannot control. Situations won't happen the way you want, people will be jerks. All you can do is determine how you are going to handle it and move on
  3. Keep your (real) friends close and your enemies far, far away. In other words, get rid of those toxic people that don't need a place in your life. As much as you want to give them the benefit of the doubt, they just aren't going to change
  4. Live each day like it was your last (well for the most part!) Enjoy the sunshine, your child's laugh, your cat playfully swatting at your shoelaces, your dog giving you that pitiful puppy dog face because she wants a bite of your dinner
The Ghost of Christmas Future 
In my version of this story I really hope this ghost isn't as depressing and frightening as the one in the other stories. I hope people aren't enjoying holiday dinners or parties laughing at my expense or that the ghost shows me my grave!

What I do hope this ghost shows me is someone who has continued to seek out good people to have in her life. Someone who works hard and is rewarded for what she does. That she is that friend that everyone knows they can go to for anything.

She is the wife who continues to let her husband go on his adventures and continue to work on his hobbies. She is the mom to a beautiful and wonderful daughter that continues to be stubborn (no matter how many gray hairs it gives her mommy!), because that stubbornness will make her a strong individual that won't let anyone push her around.

Most of all I hope that my future self is someone that takes time for herself, and knows that even though things won't always go her way that she is special and loved and has many, many people that couldn't imagine their lives without her.

Don’t cry over the past, it’s gone. Don’t stress about the future, it hasn’t arrived. Live in the present and make it beautiful.
                                                                                    ~ Unknown

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!














 

Sunday, November 29, 2015

I'm Thankful For...

So I have seen so many people post what they are thankful for this month. You know, the whole Thanksgiving Holiday thing :) . Well first off...I have stayed away from doing that because 1) Shouldn't we be thankful all year? and 2) Everyone else is doing it and...I am not one to follow the crowd! But...the more I thought about it, the more I thought...Why not! I have so many things to be thankful for (year round!)

So here we go! (and I will do 30 since 1) It's a nice round number and 2) There are 30 days in November. If I was really ambitious I would do 365 items but...yeah no! :)

I am thankful for:

1) My wonderful husband and soul mate. 16 years together and 15 years of marriage and I still love him! He makes me laugh every day and totally gets me, probably more than I get me!
2) A beautiful, caring daughter who is smart and has a great sense of humor. Though we butt heads regularly I just know this makes her a strong individual that will never let anyone push her around
3) Parents and in-laws that are (mostly) healthy and are around to watch my daughter grow up
4) The fun relationship I see my daughter developing with her grandma
5) A job, even though right now it is a contract position (which equals no time off). I am just thankful to be employed and doing something I enjoy and working with some wonderful people who don't mind my endless questions!
6) That even though I was unemployed this summer that I could collect unemployment and got to spend some extra quality time with my daughter
7) All my friends and family that stood by me as I dealt with a very toxic person/situation who made me doubt myself as a person and my abilities
8) A roof over my head though there are times I just want to torch it and start fresh! I am thankful I have a house that I have to clean and that for the most part...it's in good shape!
9) For a nice newer car that I know is going to be pretty reliable (and with new snow tires should hopefully get me around pretty well if it snows!)
10) That I have been blessed with a sense of humor and have friends and family that totally get it and don't think less of me because of it!
11) That I got to co-coach a wonderful bunch of cheerleaders with a awesome partner in crime
12) Coffee! Need I say more???
13) The endless supply of books because I just love to read
14) My furry animals that make me laugh and love me unconditionally
15) Chocolate because what would a world without chocolate be?
16) People that will support my various business adventures no matter how pushy or annoying I may be trying to promote it!
17) A wood stove that my husband keeps a fire in during the winter
18) The fact that my daughter is now old enough that she is pretty self reliant (but let's face it, she is still a kid so will try to get mom and dad to do stuff for her that she is totally capable of!)
19) Thursday nights because I get to watch hot guys on my TV screen for an hour
20) That my dear husband let's me drool over said hot guys on Thursday nights!
21) Warm fuzzy socks and flannel pj bottoms for those cold days where I am just vegging around
22) Wonderful and crazy sister-in-law's that I actually like
23) A pretty decent childhood that didn't screw me up too much for adulthood!
24) New friends, old friends, and those in between friends that have all brought a little something to my life and has helped shape me into who I am today
25) Thumb holes - those things are just AWESOME!
26) Heated seats in my car. I mean whoever thought of that was a genius!! I thank you and my butt thanks you!
27) My Health. Oh sure, I have a bit of arthritis in my hands, an ache in my foot every morning but for the most part I am ready and able and have no serious ailments
28) Facebook. Yes I said it. I am thankful for Facebook. Though it can be somewhat debilitating at time it has connected me (or reconnected me) with people that have helped me through situations or made me laugh on days where I just wanted to curl up into the fetal position
29) Pinterest because I sure couldn't come up with some of this crap on my own!
30) Each day that I get to live another day, breath another breathe, see another sunrise and to love and be loved!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

I'm Glad to be an 80's Kid!

I love technology as much as the next person but I have to say that I am thankful I grew up in the 80's and that all the newfangled technology was not around then!

When I was Shelby's age there was no Facebook, no Instagram, no quick and easy way to know what everyone else was doing. Nowadays they can know what their classmates and friends are doing with a click of the mouse. I am in sure in some cases this is a good thing. Want to share a picture of the fun day you and your friend had? Share it via email or Instagram (or some thing called Snapchat but that one doesn't make any sense to me!). You don't have to wait to finish your roll of film, send it in for development and then get it back. Oh and if you want you and your friend to both have a copy of a photo then...don't forget to get double copies!

 But what about the downside? If young kids are anything like I was at that age (and I am pretty sure they are!) then they are insecure about themselves, feel like they don't have friends, or feel like no one likes them or wants to hang out with them. This is easily justifiable as they peruse through their social media outlets and get to see pictures and posts from their classmates and friends. Even I scroll through them and my heart drops into my stomach a bit as I see Shelby's friends and classmates hanging out together but she isn't included. I mean at least when I was a kid I could just be naive and assume everyone else was sitting home with their mom watching The Golden Girls (in my defense, that was an AWESOME show! :)).

Hopefully as parents we encourage our kids to respect others and treat them well, but let's be realistic, they are kids and they will be mean to kids (weren't we all?) and kids will be mean to them. Back in the old days this would be done verbally and probably in the hallways during school or on the playground. I am sure it still happens there but now it also happens via the social network. Kids can easily respond to a post on one of these outlets that insults someone, makes fun of someone else, or can just be taken wrong by someone else. Oh sure, this would all still happen even if there was no internet, because kids will be kids, but the internet just makes it so much easier nowadays.

I just hope I have instilled confidence in my daughter and that even if she does see these things on social media she won't let it bug her. She will just look at it and decide not to participate in any bully like activities, that she does realize she has friends and will probably post pictures of her own that may make other people which they were hanging out with her.

I am just thankful I didn't have to worry about all this as a kid! God Bless the '80's! :)

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Life is a Tough Mother F!cker!

Seriously I wish I had known what life would like like at 39 when I was a kid! I remember always wanting to be older than I was, and wanting to be an "adult". Oh what a naive little kid I was! Being an adult sucks a$s! Okay, okay it doesn't suck a$s all the time, but those huge life moments happen more often then I would like and are a lot tougher to get through than any "issue" I had as a kid!

I have had a chance to really re-evaluate my life these past 4 months. Being unemployed (and bored!) gives you plenty of time to do that! So what, you ask, have I come to realize or what changes have I made? Well glad you asked!

1.) I realized who are the people I want in my life. These are people that stand by me no matter what my mood may be. The ones that will curse and cry right along with me about how unfair life is. These are the friends that will drop everything at the last minute and invite me to a coffee (or drink) date because they know I need it. They are the ones that make time for me even in the midst of their busy lives

2.) Meditation REALLY does work! I was always a bit skeptical about it, but maybe that was just because I wasn't sure how to go about doing it or never felt I had the time for it. However I have learned that we need to make time for it, or at least for a few moments just to allow our body and soul to have a little siesta. It doesn't even have to take long, and you don't have to get in any weird position, and go "Ummmmmm!" It can be as quick as 2 minutes (though I prefer a good 5 minutes for those rushed days!) and it's really just about the breathing. It's also about acknowledging how you may be feeling and simply saying "Hello there anxiety! I am not going to let you get to me today!"

3.) Life can suck, but someone else's life probably sucks more than yours. Yes I have been unemployed the past 4 months. I went through some crappy accusations about my work ethic that really tore me down. I knew these words were not true but you do still stop and question it. So I was not only unemployed, but was having my unemployment benefits questioned. I was questioning my purpose on this earth in general. What was I hear for? Life sucked. But you know what...I was healthy, my family was healthy, we had family helping us out by treating us to dinner or letting them clean their house for some extra cash (Thanks mom!).  Even though people may not let you see it, everyone is struggling inside with something!

4.) I have magic powers! No I have not taken up any hallucinate drugs, I really do have magic powers! Okay, maybe not, but I have realized how the powers of positive thinking can create life-changing results. I have taken to writing in a journal again after YEARS (like 16!) and I joked to Chad that it was a magic journal because what I wrote in it came true! Granted not quite the way I wanted it to, but true non the less. I was talking about this with a friend who pointed me towards the Laws of Attraction. This is basically a philosophy used to sum up the idea that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts a person brings positive or negative experiences into their life. I started to look back on things that had happened in my life and was like "OMG, it's true!" Maybe it's pure coincidence but then again, maybe it's not! Hmm, wonder what my superhero name should be... :)
You can check out more about this here http://www.thesecret.tv/

5.) Treasure those little moments because who knows how long you will be able to. You just never know when your time on this planet will be over. We don't want to consider death of ourselves or our loved ones but it is inevitable. Hopefully it is off in the far future, but you just never know. So tell your friends and family that you love them (and yes sometimes it is okay to say "Right now you are really annoying me but I still love you!"), enjoy the little things like a sunny day (or even a rainy day when you can curl up underneath a blankie with your kitty, a cup of coffee and a good book!). Appreciate your daughter's HUGE stubborn streak because you know it will be a good trait to have in the future (but not so great when you are trying to raise her and her stubborn streak clashes with your stubborn streak!)

I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. I also know that even though I am in a better place now, that there will continue to be tough times ahead. I just hope I can continue to look past the negative and remain positive and thankful for what God has given me!




Monday, August 10, 2015

Smile Though Your Heart is Aching

I was going to try to start posting more positive posts but, well, life isn't always a barrel of fun (though it would sure be nice if it was!)

A year ago today a wonderful daughter/wife/mother/friend passed away. It sucks. There is no better word to describe it. We have had to sit back and watch as her family deals with a world full of new "firsts" that won't involve her. Well at least not in the physical sense.

It is hard to lose someone at any age (theirs or ours!). You never totally get over it. Yes I am sure the pain subsides a bit but there will always be those moments. Ones where you go to call that person and realize they are no longer with us, or you may think you see them at the grocery store for a brief second but then realize that isn't a possibility.

Some days it is hard to get out bed and to function like a normal person. We are all dealing with something. It is hard to put things in perspective when we are having an off day to realize we should be happy with what we have in front of us today. Enjoy the sunshine, or the laugh of your child. Stop and smell the roses (but be careful of the bees - especially if you are allergic!). Sit back and enjoy the rich aroma and taste of your (Starbuck's) coffee.

If nothing else, our friends passing is just a reminder to me to live each day the fullest. Life is so precious and unpredictable. I understand this isn't always possible. I mean some days we just need a good piss & moan session, but let's keep those short!

Just Smile!




Thursday, July 30, 2015

Being a Tourist in Your Hometown

So I have lived in Washington my whole life. In fact I have lived in the Pacific Northwest my whole life. IN FACT...I am currently living about 14 miles from the homes I grew up in. Yep...I have not ventured far.

Needless to say...I have rarely played tourist in Seattle. Oh sure I have ventured down there once every 10-15 years but that is about it. If it hadn't been for Shelby creating a bucket list and wanting to visit some touristy places that were in Seattle, it would probably be another 10-15 years!

So the first stop on our tour was the original Starbuck's in Pike Place Market. Did you know that this is NOT the first location? The first Starbucks cafe was located at 2000 Western Avenue from 1971–1976. This cafe later moved to 1912 Pike Place, its present location


Next stop, the infamous Gum Wall! And wouldn't you know it, I left my gum in the car! Luckily Shelby had a few pieces in her pocket. This is a fairly new attraction having been created in 1993 when patrons of a nearby theater stuck gum to the wall and placed coins in the gum blobs.Theater workers scraped the gum away twice, but eventually gave up after market officials deemed the gum wall a tourist attraction around 1999.



After perusing the market we got back in the car and ventured to Fremont to find out what lives under the bridge! This is also a newer attraction. He was sculptured in 1990 by 4 artist for the Fremont Art Council. He measures 18 feet high. Hmm, that makes for some pretty big boogies!


Then we had to venture to Henry Art Gallery, because what could be more fun then walking through a room filled with over 37,000 balloons? Needless to say I got totally lost but did find my way out!


To finish off the day we stopped for yummy burgers at Dick's. This was the location in Lake City. The original one opened on January 28th (what a good day!) in 1954 in the Wallingford neighborhood. Needless to say, burgers have increased in price since then when they were only $.19!



All in all a good day playing tourist in our very own Seattle!

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Thank You

I have words that I want to type out, but not quite sure how to construct my sentences. I sat here for a few minutes just contemplating on what the title of my post should be! Nothing catchy came to mind so I figured a simple thank you would do.

I want to say thank you to those people that have made me feel happier, and may not have even realized it! Those that I ran into while around town and made it a point to say that they enjoy my posts, and how I made them laugh or smile.

I want to thank those friends that just send me a quick text when they know I am feeling down to make sure I am okay or if I need to go for coffee (or something a bit stronger!) to vent/cry/scream.

I am thankful for those that may make what seems like a small gesture, but it brightens my day and reassures me I have a great support system.

So Thank You, Muchas Gracias, Merci, Danke, Grazie, Arigato and Tack!

Monday, June 29, 2015

Warning: Toxic





Honestly I wish people that were toxic had to wear signs like this. It would clue me in to the fact that I don't need them in my life, that I need to steer clear of them and that all they will do is poison my thoughts and beliefs.

I am, and I think always will be, a firm believer that people come and go in our lives for a variety of reason. Sometimes, unfortunately, I think these toxic people have to cross our paths so that we will grow as a person, or possibly correct our own imperfection. Not that I have to like it, but I am sure they all serve a purpose.

I really do try to see the best in people. If someone does not favor me (yes, it does happen, as shocking as that may be!) I just tell myself that there is something about me that makes them insecure which in turn causes them to be negative towards me. I cannot control what other people do or say. I hope people will like me but I realize not everyone will. I cannot let their negative thoughts affect how I think about myself. I know I am a good person and that is all that matters.

I think I may stock up on a few of these stickers though and just randomly go around and stick them on people that are toxic in my life! I mean I will be doing good for all man kind!


Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Dear God, No more life challenges please!

Ugh, this last year and especially the last few months have been really challenging. I regret all those years where I took my good life for granted.

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that we grow from all that life throws our way. However, with that being said, some days it is a lot harder to tell yourself that! Instead I find myself going "This isn't fair! I am a good person! I follow rules! I drive the speed limit! Why am I having to go through this?"

No one is providing me those answers. In fact I am sure God is sitting up there going "Be patient Child. Quit asking why and just be patient! Know that I always have your best interest at heart!"

What is the worst part is just questioning everything about me, my life, my friends, my thoughts. Am I just over-worrying things? Probably! Chad said that ever was there a job for a full time worrier that I would excel at that job! :) Should I have done things differently? Am I doing enough?

This growing up stuff is hard! This is all suppose to be behind me! Maybe the message here is that I should be more compassionate to my tweenager who is going through her own life changes as well. This whole experience is to make me humble.

What I do know is that I have an awesome support system! Especially my dear husband who simply says "Don't worry about it. We will work through this together". God broke the mold when he created my hubby!

But enough already...I have had enough life lessons for the year! I get it! Let's move on!

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Ho-De-Hum

Have I ever mentioned that I am not a patient person? Add to that the fact that I over analyze everything and you have just one hot mess of a person!

For being kind of a "go with the flow" kind of person it really doesn't make sense that I am also impatient and an over-thinker. Why can't I just be "Yeah, whatevs!"

I am someone that constantly tells myself "Everything happens for a reason and happens when it is suppose to" I just have to have faith that things will happen the way they are suppose to and that everything will be okay.

But when!?!?!?!? What does the future hold??? I NEED TO KNOW!!!! I AM STRESSING OUT HERE!!! :)

I guess I will just sit here and contemplate my navel.

Ho-De-Hum....

Friday, May 8, 2015

Reading...is my drug!

I think I can understand what an addict must go through on a daily basis. The struggles they must face, the hurdles they must overcome, the urges they must fight. I can understand this because......I am an addict to reading!!

I will read whenever possible! I will sneak books into the bathroom with me so I can read in peace away from my family. I have been known to sneak a book out while on the job so I can get a few pages in while on break. I have been known on several occasions to start a book with good intentions to just read a few chapters and then put it down to get daily tasks done, and a few hours later I have not moved from my spot and the book is done. This past week I have stayed up on three different nights well past 2 am just to finish a book! Good thing I am currently unemployed and can sleep in the next day!

Having a Kindle is my worst enemy. It is basically my enabler! In the olden days one would have to drive to the library or bookstore if they had finished one book to get another. Now it's simply a slide of the finger and another book has been downloaded!

A few weeks ago my family and I were heading to the ocean. We stopped at Target for a few last minute items and, even though I had already packed away two books, I had to meander down the book aisle. I came across a book that recently was made into a movie. It was a movie that Shelby wanted to see so I was like "Oh she might enjoy reading this" so we bought it. Well being the good mommy that I am, I figured I would read it first just to make sure it was appropriate. Well it wasn't (probably a bit more young adult than she is!) but I enjoyed it so much that I had finished it before we even got to our destination AND I had to boot up my Kindle and download another book by the author as soon as I finished reading it. Well then Amazon has the nerve to say "Well if you like this author you may like this one" I mean, they are forcing me to read more! They have the nerve to entice you even more with special Prime membership prices, the option to check some books out and even have some books for FREE! I mean, how can anyone say no to that????? So my vacation with my family consisted of a total of 6 books read, 4 of which were by one author and were all read within a 48 hour period!

I guess the first step is admitting you have a problem right??

In case anyone is interested, here are the books I read on that trip AND a few I have read since then. All are YA or NA (Young Adult and New Adult in case you were wondering!)

The Duff - Kody Keplinger
A Midsummer's Nightmare - Kody Keplinger
Reason's I Fell for the Funny Fat Friend - Cassie Mae
How to Date  Nerd - Cassie Mae
How to Hook a Bookworm - Cassie Mae
Switched - Cassie Mae
True Love and Magic Tricks - Becca Ann (aka Cassie Mae)
The Real Thing - Cassie Mae
The Fine Art of Pretending - Rachel Harris
Isn't She Lovely - Lauren Layne
The Deal - Elle Kennedy

And if you need any more reading material, I know where you can get hooked up....

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

God is Good!

I am not one to go around preaching gospel or throwing my faith in God at anyone but I just feel I have to do it today, especially in light of my recent struggles and moods.

For the last several months I have been doubting my self - worth and my capability to function as an adult out in the real world. I felt like no matter what I did I could not succeed and this was hard because I had never experienced it before. I know that I am a hard worker and valuable but no matter how much I tried to remind myself of that, the negative thoughts overrode the positive ones.

Now I am not a huge religious person, but I do believe in God and he has always seemed to keep me safe. Quite honestly though the last few months I began to understand how people can lose faith in God. I just kept going "Why are you making me doubt myself and go through this?"

Luckily I stuck it out (what can I say, I am stubborn!) and within just 5 short days I have been blessed with positive thoughts from all over! I am not sure if I agree with the path God choose to take me on but the end result is a good one! 

Saturday, May 2, 2015

I'm Good Enough, I'm Smart Enough and doggone it people like me!

That is my motto today!!

Funny that my horoscope yesterday was to document my life story and write about it. My coworker says "Time to update your blog!" I was like "Yeah I have nothing to write about!" but after what transpired yesterday that has changed!

I suffer from depression. Most of the time it's just seasonal. The dark and dreary winter months cause me to shrink back into my shell and just want to hibernate until the sun comes out again. However in the past 9  months this has not been the case and this is not normal.

Yes we have had life altering issues, such as the death of a friend which I am sure contributes to it, however this was worse than that. For the first time ever I had people that were (and are) extremely worried about me. So this made me really stop and think. Obviously things are pretty bad if I have said or done things that make my friends worried. I am usually one that tries not to lean on others and to try to fix my problems first. If I am no longer able to do this than I am not as strong as I once was and this means I need some help.

I was in a bad situation for the past several months. No need to go into what it was, as most of my friends already know. This situation had people making me doubt myself. Every day I felt like I had no redeeming qualities and that I sucked at everything I did. I was basically to blame for everything. If you know me, you know that this is not the case! I am a kind, considerate, hard-working individual! If I make a mistake, I try to learn from it and move on. I always put my best effort forward. To be accused of not doing this just angers me. As I see it, the situation has taken a turn for the better. I may struggle for a bit but in the end I know my faith and self worth will be restored.

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I reflected on my situation last night and was like "Why did I have to suffer through this and feel all this pain?" Who knows what the real reasons may be but I feel it was for two reasons.

The first reason was so that know that I never want to deal with a situation or people like I had to again. I will be reminded that I deserve better than that and to stick up for myself.

The second reason is for the friendships that transpired or grew from this. Not only the new friendships but the reassurance that I have a wonderful group of friends that are always there for me.

I am good enough, I am smart enough and DOGGONE it, people like me!!

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Polly Pissy Pants won't leave and now Negative Nelly has come to visit!

So I started 2015 with one goal, just one! It was a simple one too! To be positive. To see the silver lining on every cloud, to stop and smell the roses, to look at the world through rose colored classes.

Well so far the skies have been overcast so no clouds, roses are wilted or not in bloom and someone dropped and then stepped on my rose colored glasses! Polly Pissy Pants and Negative Nelly have set up shop in my house and won't leave!

I know I have many things to be thankful for, and I really do try hard to remember those. I mean I have a healthy family, a roof over my head, clothes on my back. I just keep letting the little things get to me and to stress me out and make me angry.

Social media doesn't help either. Stories about abandoned children, sore winners from the Super Bowl, celebrities that are transitioning from a man to a woman (okay well that one doesn't make me angry, it just makes me shake my head!). They all just make you scratch your head and go "What is the world coming to?" It makes me mostly just want to bury my head in the sand and pretend like none of this is really going on around me!

Getting old doesn't help either. To many "adult" responsibilities! Bills to be paid, taxes that are due. First time EVER that we have to pay and it makes me angry! I mean we make TOO much to qualify for any discounts/savings but barely make enough to live comfortably. Stupid, stupid....

But again...I shouldn't complain right? I have a wonderful, caring husband who makes me laugh, a smart and beautiful daughter that melts my heart, wonderful friends who let me vent and tell me to suck it up and get over it when I am being a pill, family that loves me and makes sure I am okay.

So hopefully Polly & Nelly will move their butts here shortly and we will all live happily ever after!

Ha!