Ugh, this last year and especially the last few months have been really challenging. I regret all those years where I took my good life for granted.
I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that we grow from all that life throws our way. However, with that being said, some days it is a lot harder to tell yourself that! Instead I find myself going "This isn't fair! I am a good person! I follow rules! I drive the speed limit! Why am I having to go through this?"
No one is providing me those answers. In fact I am sure God is sitting up there going "Be patient Child. Quit asking why and just be patient! Know that I always have your best interest at heart!"
What is the worst part is just questioning everything about me, my life, my friends, my thoughts. Am I just over-worrying things? Probably! Chad said that ever was there a job for a full time worrier that I would excel at that job! :) Should I have done things differently? Am I doing enough?
This growing up stuff is hard! This is all suppose to be behind me! Maybe the message here is that I should be more compassionate to my tweenager who is going through her own life changes as well. This whole experience is to make me humble.
What I do know is that I have an awesome support system! Especially my dear husband who simply says "Don't worry about it. We will work through this together". God broke the mold when he created my hubby!
But enough already...I have had enough life lessons for the year! I get it! Let's move on!