Random stuff bout Me, Chad, Shelby or anything else I feel like talking about

Monday, June 29, 2015

Warning: Toxic

Honestly I wish people that were toxic had to wear signs like this. It would clue me in to the fact that I don't need them in my life, that I need to steer clear of them and that all they will do is poison my thoughts and beliefs.

I am, and I think always will be, a firm believer that people come and go in our lives for a variety of reason. Sometimes, unfortunately, I think these toxic people have to cross our paths so that we will grow as a person, or possibly correct our own imperfection. Not that I have to like it, but I am sure they all serve a purpose.

I really do try to see the best in people. If someone does not favor me (yes, it does happen, as shocking as that may be!) I just tell myself that there is something about me that makes them insecure which in turn causes them to be negative towards me. I cannot control what other people do or say. I hope people will like me but I realize not everyone will. I cannot let their negative thoughts affect how I think about myself. I know I am a good person and that is all that matters.

I think I may stock up on a few of these stickers though and just randomly go around and stick them on people that are toxic in my life! I mean I will be doing good for all man kind!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Dear God, No more life challenges please!

Ugh, this last year and especially the last few months have been really challenging. I regret all those years where I took my good life for granted.

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that we grow from all that life throws our way. However, with that being said, some days it is a lot harder to tell yourself that! Instead I find myself going "This isn't fair! I am a good person! I follow rules! I drive the speed limit! Why am I having to go through this?"

No one is providing me those answers. In fact I am sure God is sitting up there going "Be patient Child. Quit asking why and just be patient! Know that I always have your best interest at heart!"

What is the worst part is just questioning everything about me, my life, my friends, my thoughts. Am I just over-worrying things? Probably! Chad said that ever was there a job for a full time worrier that I would excel at that job! :) Should I have done things differently? Am I doing enough?

This growing up stuff is hard! This is all suppose to be behind me! Maybe the message here is that I should be more compassionate to my tweenager who is going through her own life changes as well. This whole experience is to make me humble.

What I do know is that I have an awesome support system! Especially my dear husband who simply says "Don't worry about it. We will work through this together". God broke the mold when he created my hubby!

But enough already...I have had enough life lessons for the year! I get it! Let's move on!